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Beginning My Journey Through Faith

Sitting in the dark

Waiting for sleep to come, with jitters

Of expectation and apprehension

Thinking what have I gotten myself into

A fan hums rhythmically nearby

A scrapping sound comes from the wall

Like the moving of something big in the other room

The voices all around have quieted down

It seems most are going to sleep, or at least trying

Disappointed there is a cot; thought

I’d get to sleep on the floor

Chafing noises again, they must be moving beds…

In the quiet every little noise is amplified,

And every thought is deafening.

For once there is a single focused thought

(Though it is a river with many tributaries):

Can I do this?

Feeling like Moses…

Moses says, “I can’t”

God says, “You can.”

Moses says, “I don’t want to.”

God says, “I want you to.”

Moses says, “Will you go with me?”

God says, “Of course I will!”

I trust, my Lord, the same goes for me.

 

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