The second thing that came out of my reading Celebration was the idea that I’m scared of silence. And being alone. I definitely still have some solitude & abandonment issues which are completely irrational and downright silly. I fill my time with so much noise at work, at home and in the car. There’s always music or TV or the radio or something going to fill the void.
There are a number of steps that I told myself I had to take when I got home. It wasn’t easy to start. It isn't easy to continue.
Step One—I have to cut back on my TV again.
I was very much addicted to TV in high school. It only got worse in college, esp. when I dropped into the lowest stage of my depression. I’ve fluctuated as an adult between better and worse. It was easier in many ways when I didn’t have cable. Luckily I have an understanding roommate who doesn’t mind parental controls being set. And I’ve happily rediscovered Disney, Nickelodeon and Boomerang.
So I’ve already made some strides. But just because I can watch it doesn’t mean I should. Those shows to get cut are Castle, Fringe, The Mentalist, 6Teen, and Stoked. I get to keep NCIS, NCIS Los Angeles, CSI: NY and the Disney and Nickelodeon shows. For now. And I really struggled getting rid of a six-part Monty Python documentary that recently aired and Monty Python & The Holy Grail. I did watch Grail before I deleted it. I probably shouldn’t have.
Step Two—I need to be daily in the Word.
I have slacked off major on this and BSF was supposed to be helping. It’s not and the problem isn’t with the BSF homework. It’s with me. It’s no one’s responsibility but my own to get into this habit again and stick to it. But I can’t do it alone; I have to have God’s help. And I need to figure out how exactly God’s going to help me.
Step Three—I must become daily mindful of my budget.
Again, I have slacked off on this. I am improving but not where I should be or even where I used to be. (And I admit I really hope Derek and Natalie don’t read this because I really don’t want them to be disappointed in me.) (Which is totally the wrong thinking! Shouldn’t I be more concerned about being a good steward to God?!)
Step Four—Work on scripture memorization
This is becoming a lost art to most of today’s Christian. Besides your pastor, how many people do you know that can rattle Bible verses off the top of their head? AND have it be relevant?
This week I’ve been working on Galations 5:22-23 and 6:8. Feel free to quiz me if you see me.
Tune in tomorrow to find out what my mediation related epiphanies were/are...
There are a number of steps that I told myself I had to take when I got home. It wasn’t easy to start. It isn't easy to continue.
Step One—I have to cut back on my TV again.
I was very much addicted to TV in high school. It only got worse in college, esp. when I dropped into the lowest stage of my depression. I’ve fluctuated as an adult between better and worse. It was easier in many ways when I didn’t have cable. Luckily I have an understanding roommate who doesn’t mind parental controls being set. And I’ve happily rediscovered Disney, Nickelodeon and Boomerang.
So I’ve already made some strides. But just because I can watch it doesn’t mean I should. Those shows to get cut are Castle, Fringe, The Mentalist, 6Teen, and Stoked. I get to keep NCIS, NCIS Los Angeles, CSI: NY and the Disney and Nickelodeon shows. For now. And I really struggled getting rid of a six-part Monty Python documentary that recently aired and Monty Python & The Holy Grail. I did watch Grail before I deleted it. I probably shouldn’t have.
Step Two—I need to be daily in the Word.
I have slacked off major on this and BSF was supposed to be helping. It’s not and the problem isn’t with the BSF homework. It’s with me. It’s no one’s responsibility but my own to get into this habit again and stick to it. But I can’t do it alone; I have to have God’s help. And I need to figure out how exactly God’s going to help me.
Step Three—I must become daily mindful of my budget.
Again, I have slacked off on this. I am improving but not where I should be or even where I used to be. (And I admit I really hope Derek and Natalie don’t read this because I really don’t want them to be disappointed in me.) (Which is totally the wrong thinking! Shouldn’t I be more concerned about being a good steward to God?!)
Step Four—Work on scripture memorization
This is becoming a lost art to most of today’s Christian. Besides your pastor, how many people do you know that can rattle Bible verses off the top of their head? AND have it be relevant?
This week I’ve been working on Galations 5:22-23 and 6:8. Feel free to quiz me if you see me.
Tune in tomorrow to find out what my mediation related epiphanies were/are...
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